The late posting is due to the fact that I found myself, unexpectedly, at a funeral this morning. The death itself wasn’t unexpected (the father of one of my employees passed away after a long illness), the funeral wasn’t unexpected, my presence at the funeral was.
Oh, Dear Readers, if you could have been witnesses to my morning! At 9:45 a.m., I was leaning back in my office chair, feet crossed upon my desk, picking my teeth, sucking on a wheat stalk, scratching my favorite rooster under the chin, and placidly contemplating whether or not to go down one floor to rustle myself up a cup of hot tea. That was when co-workers started trickling into my office one-by-one asking if I was going to go the funeral. Um. Er. I dunno. And then, smack on the forehead to me! Yes, I was supposed to be at the funeral. What had I been thinking?! I am the bereaved’s supervisor; there are a grand total of three of us in the technical writing department so we're quite close; and if there has ever been a time when one of us needed support, this was it, so, yes, yes, indeed, I was supposed to be at the funeral. What a doof.
The problem? By then it was 10am. The funeral was at 11. What was I wearing? Jeans with a yellow paint stain on them, a brightly striped sweater, and scuffed sneakers—not acceptable funeral attire, in fact, barely acceptable work attire. Where do I live, and where are all my other clothes? A good 45-minute drive away, on the other side of Lake Washington. After a hurried consultation with The Mysterious K during which we decided that, no, she couldn’t possibly get some dark-ish clothes to me in time—although, to her credit, she was perfectly willing to try—I jumped in the car and sped off to a department store five miles down the road. In the space of half-an-hour, I purchased black clothes (which fit—that's the miracle!); changed into them in a too-small stall in a ladies' room in a messy flurry of arms, legs, sweaters and pants, accompanied by loud, unladylike grunts; and found my way 15 miles through completely unfamiliar territory to the church. With 4 minutes to spare. I was sweatin' it a bit, let me tell you.
The moral of the story? It was Worth. Every. Minute. One look at the tears of relief and heartfelt gratitude in my employee's eyes when she saw the six of us from work who attended told me that every moment of panic, every ounce of adrenaline, every unladylike grunt, every permanent finger dent in my steering wheel—all worth it for that one moment. I'm feelin' pretty good. Sad and reflective, but good.
I'm not religious, mind you, but Bless You.
Posted by: Norma on November 1, 2004 05:16 PMI just knew you were a good soul.
Posted by: Samina on November 1, 2004 05:46 PMWell, I *am* religious, and you get a smiley face *and* a gold star for the day!
Now 'scuse me, I'm so completely freaked out about tomorrow's election, I'm going to take myself to the Ray Charles movie.
Posted by: Cuzzin Tom on November 1, 2004 06:09 PMRyan-
*hugs* you are a wonderful and kind soul. and random acts of kindness become you. unladylike grunts and all. its really the little things in times of stress that help a person get through the day.
off to vote....
Posted by: anj on November 2, 2004 03:15 AMThere it is. Proof that acting in a way that brings more kindness into the world always works. Atta girl.
Goodness of soul truly does shine Ryan.
You did "the right thing" which is not nearly as easy as some make it out to be.
I wish we lived closer...I'm cranky and half homicidal and you could come to the funeral of the employee I am considering offing. ;-D
That's a joke, now...but barely. L
Posted by: Lisa in Oregon on November 2, 2004 06:26 AMI'm just glad you're okay--I was worried about you! See what happens when you write so faithfully? Maybe I've been watching too much CSI, but I was wondering where I could get a crime kit and a badge and was about to go busting down the doors at your workplace... I'm glad everything worked out and you were able to attend. It does mean a lot.
Posted by: Sheila on November 2, 2004 08:11 AMi am sure that your attendance mattered far more to your friend than your outfit, although the jeans and sneakers attire might have been a bit of an eyebrow-raiser to some who were there- your friend will remember that you were there, but i rather doubt she will remember what you wore-
*and* you got a new outfit! see, a good deed never goes unpunished- or whatever-
stay happy-
Posted by: barb in texas on November 2, 2004 09:50 AMThank you everyone for the "bless you's," smiley faces, gold stars, hugs, and searches for crime kits. In retrospect, it concerns me that I was so out of touch with my employee's emotional needs and that the thought never occurred to me to go to the funeral, so yesterday was definitely a Day of Learning, Consciousness Raising and Increased Awareness for me. We're never too old for Days of Learning, Consciousness Raising and Increased Awareness! Anyone else had a good one lately?
Posted by: Ryan on November 2, 2004 03:59 PM